This past week we have had a very big thing happen in a little lady’s world- she had her first settling in session at nursery.
When I went back to work when Mads was eleven months old, we were in the fortunate position that two dear family friends and my Mum looked after her for the three days I was away. This continued for the next fourteen months until I went on maternity leave with LL, and I can’t thank them enough for having my big girl for me.
This time around our situation has changed, in all aspects. In regards to work, that’s a story for another time, but in terms of childcare we have had to decide on what to do with Mads and LL. We looked at a couple of pre-schools but due to a number of different reasons we have enrolled both Mads and LL in nursery two short days a week from 9.00am – 2.30pm. LL will start settling in sessions in January ready to start properly in February, but Mads had her first one last Thursday.
I was so nervous about taking her. She has always been quite independent but recently she has developed a sense of fear about certain things. We chatted about it in the car, and she insisted on wearing her sunglasses which I thought was funny. We walked in and straight away she was fine. I thought I would have to stay a while the first time round, but within five minutes I was out the door.
I walked outside to my car, and had to hold back the tears. I put my hands on the wheels and realised they were shaking. I know that babies go to nursery a lot earlier than she has, but it’s a big step for me to leave her with someone other than family and friends who love her as much as I do.
She is only there two hours at a time until the end of December, but when I went to pick her up, she was sat at a little table doing some painting without a care in the world. I walked in and she looked a mixture of embarrassed and happy to see me, and I had to drag her home because she didn’t want to leave. I got the most gorgeous reindeer painting, which she was so incredibly proud to tell me about as soon as I walked in the door. I honestly will treasure it forever and it’s happily got prime position on our kitchen cabinet.
I am so proud of my big girl, and although we may have a few wobbles along the way, I can tell that she will be very happy there, and will thrive. She is growing up so fast, and although it is just nursery, it feels like I am letting her go just a little bit. It sounds silly but it is a big step for me. I don’t know what on earth I am going to do when LL goes in January!