19 Weeks Pregnant...Bump Diary.
We have reached 19 weeks, that means that we are almost half way, or definitely half way if I make the decision to have a c-section. Speaking of decisions, I had my consultant appointment a couple of weeks ago. It went better than I expected, and the consultant was lovely, but as I thought they were obviously more pro a VBAC than a elective c-section.
I ran through my main points with her and she answered honestly. Firstly I asked about the fact that was Mads was large and she said that obviously this could slightly decrease my chance of a VBAC being successful- she has said she will book me in for a growth scan at 36 weeks and will not let me go too overdue, if I get to 40 weeks they wouldn't induce me and would instead book me in for a c-section between 40 and 41 weeks.
I also asked her about the fact that obviously a lot of people who have had emergency c-sections in their first labour will obviously have gone into labour and their bodies will have some element of knowing what they are doing, whereas my body didn't experience any stage of labour. She did say that it would have been better if I had gone into labour as obviously I have no way of knowing what kind of labour I will have, whereas with a second baby you would know what kind of labour you had the first time.
As I am terrible at standing up to people (sometimes), I let her write on my plan that I would have a growth scan at 36 weeks and then attempt a VBAC. I still don't know deep down if this is what I want, but I figured it was too early to argue about it. It to be honest has made me even more confused- a part of me would like to try but then a part of me would just like to have a c-section. I really really don't know.
Other than that things are going well. Apart from tiredness I still don't really feel pregnant, although I have started suffering from sciatica in my leg and a aching back like I did with Mads. However it is not all the time, and I actually find the sciatica quite amusing as all of a sudden my leg will get a shooting pain that makes me stumble- it is only ever when I have been in bed or sitting down for a long time.
I still don't think I have felt Bug move. I got a couple of tiny movements about a week ago which I thought maybe could have been, but have felt nothing since, so I am doubting that it actually was. I didn't feel Mads properly until 19 weeks and 5 days, and I know that I have a front placenta again this time, so I am hoping that is all it is. It is frustrating as I would have liked a posterior placenta this time, but at the end of the day as long as Bug is healthy I can deal with less kicks. I did start feeling Mads quite a bit after a while so I can only cross my fingers and hope this one will be the same.