Dreams.

on Wednesday, 11 April 2012.

When I was a little girl I dreamt of being a vet. Then I decided I wanted to be a journalist. I wanted a happy ever after love story- I wanted to be married at 21, first baby when I was 26. Two children- a boy and a girl. I wanted to live in a big house that looked like a dolls house. With pink roses all up the side, a huge garden with a swimming pool.

As I got older I wanted to be a psychologist. I wanted to help people. Get inside people's minds. Learn what makes us tick. I have always had a fascination with the human mind. A fascination as to why people do the things they do. I wanted to do my doctorate in psychology.

I wanted to earn lots of money. But never be one of those people that worked too hard and didn't have a life. I wanted a life. Full of friends, family and with enough money to go on expensive holidays and eat out whenever I wanted. I wanted to work hard and play hard. Life life to the full.

I wanted to travel the world. I wanted to live abroad for at least a year. Live somewhere hot. To open up my window and wake up to the sea and walk along the beach every evening and feel the sand between my toes. I wanted to have a loft style apartment with exposed brick.

I wanted to meet 'the one.' To be swept off my feet in something that resembled a scene out 'The Notebook.' I wanted that full on, head over heels kind of love. The kind of love that gives you goosebumps.

I have always been a dreamer. At school my reports always used to say that I had a very creative imagination and I was a day dreamer. And my teachers were right. I have always dreamed of a 'better life' for myself.

When I look back on my dreams, most of them haven't gone to plan.

I got married at 25, my first baby came when I was 26. Nearly. I don't live in a dolls house, but a three bedroom detached house on the outskirts of a town I don't particularly feel connected with. However my family are nearby. And it's ours. Our little place we call home.

I haven't seen all the places I want to see. I am fairly well travelled and have ticked some places off my list- Thailand, New York, Miami, Barbados, Mexico, Barcelona...to name a few. But for now the faraway holidays will have to wait. We just don't have the money to travel the world.

I am not a psychologist. I studied psychology at university and loved it, but I didn't pursue it as a career. I have coasted along from job to job going where the money takes me. Who knows what will happen in my career as the years go by? I have yet to find something that I love but I am a massively career orientated person and I am not ashamed to say I want to make money so I can treat my family. I work at the moment but not full time and not in a job that fulfills me- my career is on hold for a while as there are more important people to think about.

I married my 'one' on December 2009. That is one of the dreams that has come true. It wasn't like a love story out of 'the Notebook,' complete with a soppy love song playing in the background. But it is real true love. My husband completes me and looks after us. He makes me happy.

He is my best friend.

We don't have a huge amount of money. This year has been the toughest yet for us as Mr E got messed around by his old company and we never knew what would happen each month. But we coped. We managed. We got through it, with the help of our family and by working really damn hard every evening. We are getting there, and we are not hard done by. We have food on the table, can treat ourselves occasionally. We don't have to worry so much anymore.

We are lucky.

In December 2010 one of my dreams came true. I got my little girl. My daughter. She is the best thing in the world and all my other dreams have paled in comparison to what she brings to my life. I love spending time reading her stories and building towers with mega blocks. I love cuddling my little girl, watching her grow and experiencing the love she feels for me.

I am her mama.

That is where my dreams are.

My other dreams are on hold...for the time being at least. It doesn't mean that they are forgotten, or that they won't happen. One day I will visit the Indian Ocean and live in a house that is my dream home.

I am sure of it. I may not be rich and life may not go exactly the way I thought it was going to go but if it goes in any way like it has done the past twenty eight years- I will be one lucky girl.

Right now I am enjoying making memories, fulfilling dreams of a totally different kind. With the people that matter most.

My little family.

My greatest dream is to be happy. And thats exactly what I am.

allmydreamshavecometrue

Tags: All about Me, Family, Love, Mads

Comments (18)

Lucy at Dear Beautiful Boy

11 April 2012 at 17:29 | #

Awww, that's lovely. And so so true, that children come along and change your dreams a little. They just sort of pale in comparison once there is a little person in your life. X

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  12 April 2012 at 18:22 | #
  
  They really do- they just make it complete don't they? x
  
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HELEN

11 April 2012 at 17:36 | #

do you know when I saw the title of this post I thought it was going to be about me! After all you have dreamt about me twice now.......
Seriously though it's a lovely post Katie & you are very lucky that things are going almost to plan for you...you just need that little boy now....oh & the roses & the swimming pool!
x

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  12 April 2012 at 18:23 | #
  
  haha I do like dreaming about you Helen, but not sure you are up to a whole post yet! ;) x
  
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Notmyyearoff

11 April 2012 at 20:40 | #

When I was 11 I thought I'd be married by 19 and then have 3 kids... How things pan out! :) my life is nothing how I thought it would be. I've achieved some dreams, but not others. And some are yet to come. You've got me pondering now... Great post!

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  12 April 2012 at 18:23 | #
  
  Thanks hun, and its true, how you just don't really know how life is going to pan out. x
  
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amummysview

11 April 2012 at 20:56 | #

lovely post and I can totally understand where you are coming from it was like reading some of my thoughts and feelings. You sum it up perfectly though, we have more than achieved some of our dreams and for the minute others are on hold, our little people are important for now. Loved reading xxx

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  12 April 2012 at 18:24 | #
  
  Thanks hun. :) x
  
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Vikki @ Mummy's Cheeky Monkey

11 April 2012 at 21:03 | #

Such a beautiful post and true in so many ways. Our children complete us.
I cried when i saw that picture, it's perfect, that's the most precious moment in the world and one i sadly never had the chance to experience. Hope i'm blessed with another child in the future :) xxxx

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  12 April 2012 at 18:25 | #
  
  They really do, i can't wait to have another one. x
  
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would like to be a yummy mummy

12 April 2012 at 18:11 | #

Whenever I read your posts I think how similar we are. I wanted to be a Doctor, followed by a journalist followed by a Psychologist (either forensic or clinical). I studied Psychology at uni and then went on to be an Assistant Psychologist in various posts.

Life might not be exactly how we want it, (we're not loaded and have no roses around our door either) but its lovely to see we are happy with our little families xx

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  12 April 2012 at 18:26 | #
  
  Oh really, Karen I never knew that. That is spooky. Yes life does not end up how we thought, but I bet we wouldn't change it for the world! x
  
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Rachael

12 April 2012 at 18:47 | #

Beautiful heartfelt post. I really feel the love you have for your family here. I haven't seen The Notebook but want to now! And that photograph is gorgeous. Even without the words it would still say it all

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Bex

12 April 2012 at 20:26 | #

beautiful. My life hasn't happened the way I dreamed it, but I could never have dreamt the love I would have for that little person I managed to make. Hope you see the Indian Ocean soon x

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Richmond Mummy

13 April 2012 at 12:33 | #

Lovely post - it's good to take a step back and be grateful for all you have, rather than dwell on the things not yet fulfilled and besides, as you say, plenty of time for the other stuff later. Right now, good health and a happy little family is all anyway should really be dreaming for :-) xx

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Jenny Paulin

15 April 2012 at 19:06 | #

Well I don't knwi many people who can claim they have fulfilled all their dreams and ambitions. I wanted to be and do all sorts too but events happen, people enter and leave your life and you take differnt paths each time. I like to think that if I hadn't not dne the things I once waned to do, I woldnt have my boys and that I all that matters now. Well to me, I am a mummy and I have two healthy boys. Nothing else really matters now
Lovely post and insight into you xx

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Kate (aka Makeshift Mummy)

18 April 2012 at 21:50 | #

Ok this was like reading one of my own entries. It's amazing how such a small bundle of joy can make our lives feel complete even if they ddnt go to plan as we had hoped. I think you and your lovely family are truly blessed, and we are all blessed for getting to know you and about you here :-) xx

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Marine Pina Urrútia

20 April 2012 at 12:45 | #

Very useful blog. Keep up the good work.

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