Innocence...

on Wednesday, 09 May 2012.

Do you ever just want to freeze time? Or store every memory up in your head and be able to go back and relive them whenever you want?

Recently I can't stop thinking about Mads and how completely and utterly pure and innocent she is. She knows nothing of the sometimes horrible world we live in, she knows nothing of the dangers. All she sees is the beauty in things. She is a little blank canvas, ready to be moulded by the way we bring her up.

The way she giggles when we blow raspberries on her tummy. The way her little face lights up and her eyes go big and wide when she gets chocolate. The way her Daddy coming in from work makes her jump up and down and shout with delight. All these things are the most endearing and beautiful qualities that make her our lovely daughter.

I don't want her to lose them. Sometimes I want to guard her from the world and all the horrible things that coud happen. I never want her to feel scared, get hurt, or feel any sort of pain. I don't want her to know that there are some not so good people out there, that can do bad things. I don't want her to know that there are people out there who steal, or kill, or hurt. Or that some people bully and say mean things. That someone could break her heart one day. I want her to keep her in her cocoon of childlike innocence forever.

I want her to grow up and find the magic in things. Be excited about Father Christmas coming, or by putting her tooth under the pillow for the tooth fairy. I want her to play with dolls, tenderly brush their hair and play make believe and imagine fairies, ghosts and mermaids. I want to make her younger years a life full of fun, imagination and creativity.

You see children nowadays and they grow up far too quickly. You only have to walk down the street and see girls as young as twelve caked in makeup, fake tan and false eyelashes. Why are they in such a hurry to grow up? Why can't they enjoy being young?

When the time comes, don't get me wrong, I will educate my daughter to know right from wrong, and I will make her street wise.

I just wish I didn't have too.

I wish I could keep her my innocent and pure little girl forever, the one that sucks her fingers and pulls on my ear when she is tired. The one whose tears can be stopped by a cuddle from her Mummy or Daddy.

4thmay2012

It makes me sad to think of the day when cuddles might not be enough.

Tags: Childhood, Innocence, Love, Mads

Comments (27)

Charlotte

09 May 2012 at 07:02 | #

Lovely post! I too don't see why children are in such a rush to grow up! I still don't like to consider myself a grown up but now I've had Bob, I may have too! ;0)

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  11 May 2012 at 19:41 | #
  
  Haha I am exactly the same! x
  
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Vikki @ Love From Mummy

09 May 2012 at 08:03 | #

Beautiful post as always and beautiful photo of Mads too! I feel the exact same towards Riley and know he'll be a man someday but hope he never gets too big for mummy's cuddles xxx

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  11 May 2012 at 19:52 | #
  
  I still love a cuddle from my Mummy so I hope Mads will be the same! x
  
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Lucy at Dear Beautiful Boy

09 May 2012 at 09:10 | #

I remember writing a post ages ago about scary the world is and how desperate I was to protect the little guy from fear. They are little pure bundles of loveliness and it's scary to think that at some point they have to go out into the world alone. I actually remember feeling guilty when the riots were happening, that I had had a child at all when the world was so awful.
It just like to remind myself that part of my job is prepare him for all those things and just hope he knows he can always come back if he needs to. And that there will always be mummy cuddles when they are needed! X

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  11 May 2012 at 19:53 | #
  
  I think your right hun, and it is so true they really are little bundles of loveliness- I hate the thought of her ever being sad. x
  
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Bryony @ lovebryony.co.uk

09 May 2012 at 09:14 | #

This makes me heart hurt! Everytime something bad happens on the news I get a surge of guilt (like Lucy said above), when the Norway massacre happened I was a state and got really over protective of Frankie. I just have to remember that the best I can do is show Francesca all the lovely things in the world!

Also that photo of Mads is beautiful x

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  11 May 2012 at 19:54 | #
  
  It is sometimes a horrible world. I guess we just need to teach them the beauty. xx
  
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Lisa @ hollybobbs

09 May 2012 at 10:06 | #

I wrote a similar post myself not too long ago, it's a scary world and I just want to shield her from it all! We have an agreement anyway, H is allowed to get 4 then she stops growing up! :)

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  11 May 2012 at 19:55 | #
  
  Haha I like that plan, I think I might like to keep Mads young forever too. x
  
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Mascara and Mud

09 May 2012 at 12:37 | #

Such a lovely post. I know what you mean about growing up too fast. I can see in my youngest's eyes that he wants to do EVERYTHING that his older brother is doing...it's so hard trying to tell him that he isn't old enough yet or can we just play Buckaroo one more time Alf and then you can go and do whatever Robb's doing...bless him.

It took all my strength to not say to the young girls who were sat opposite me on the bus the other evening ''Wipe that off love, you'll look way much better without it all caked on!''...

And yes an absolute beaut of a piccie of Mads! x

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  11 May 2012 at 20:02 | #
  
  I bet its hard having a little one who looks up to his big brother! x
  
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Hilary Binns

09 May 2012 at 19:32 | #

They are so precious aren't they? Our little people and all those special moments. At 4 and 7 mine are well into the realms of getting excited about Father Christmas, the Tooth Fairy and the Easter Bunny. Sadly they have also started to learn that sometimes people can be unkind, but are not yet past the healing power of a special Mummy cuddle (phew!)
I shudder sometimes when I see some of my daughters friends wearing nail varnish and heeled shoes at the age of three or four :s Happily Charlotte still prefers messy play and running around to such pursuits :D
It would be lovely to bottle their innocence and delight at simple things and take it out when they turn into hormonal teenagers ;)
Lovely picture too :D

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  11 May 2012 at 20:04 | #
  
  Thanks for the lovely comment and I totally agree with everything your saying. And I would happily have Mads prefer messy play forever. xx
  
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Laura

09 May 2012 at 20:19 | #

Aw Katie, this is lovely. I found myself reading and nodding in agreement. This is exactly how I feel. I often find myself staring at Leo and thinking about the future. I always want him to see the magic in everything and I hate the thought that one day....He wont any more :-(( xx

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  11 May 2012 at 20:06 | #
  
  I know me too. But we have lots of time to enjoy it don't we? :) x
  
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Brittany (Healthy Slice of Life)

09 May 2012 at 23:48 | #

Oh, I completely relate! My little Hailey is only 7 months old but I already feel like she is growing up so quickly and I want to savor her wide-eyed innocence for as long as I possibly can. There is nothing like a child to make you wish we lived in a kinder world.

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  11 May 2012 at 20:07 | #
  
  I completely agree with you. x
  
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Susan Mann (@susankmann)

10 May 2012 at 10:46 | #

What a beautiful post, it is all too scary how quickly they grow up. Enjoy the time when they are young. I wish we could keep them that way x

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  11 May 2012 at 20:08 | #
  
  Thanks Susan. x
  
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Mum2BabyInsomniac

10 May 2012 at 14:22 | #

We were watching Sun, Sex and Suspicious Parents last night and just speaking about how we are dreading the day when Iyla is a teenager. I think I will be permanently worried. I can't even watch the news anymore as it scares me when I think what kind of world I have brought her into. There is too much to worry about :( xx

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  11 May 2012 at 20:10 | #
  
  Oh god that programme makes me shudder but then I got up to so much worse than they do on there. That worries me too! x
  
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Jordan Marie

10 May 2012 at 15:09 | #

awe too stinking cute!!

what a beautiful post!!

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  11 May 2012 at 20:11 | #
  
  Thank you :) x
  
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Multilayermummy

11 May 2012 at 13:42 | #

Lovely post, I wrote something similar the other day about how quickly its all going (again) & how I wish it would all slow down a bit. I love the innocence and how everything is so new to them, so lovely.

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- Mummy Daddy and Me makes Three
  
  11 May 2012 at 20:12 | #
  
  It is great seeing the world through their eyes isn't it? x
  
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amummysview

15 May 2012 at 20:56 | #

so very very true, I sometimes sit watching my little girl and feel the same, wondering what kind of world I am bringing her up in and get an overwhelming feeling of protection. I guess we can just keep doing what we are doing and keep as much of the innocence as long as possible xxx

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