Letters To LL- Wow You Are Four Weeks Old...

To My Beautiful LL,

Here is my first official letter to you, although I wrote one to you the night you were born, just like I did with your big sister.  I wondered whether to write these to you as I am also doing weekly updates, but then I thought that may be when you are older you might wonder why I wrote them to Mads and not you.

Since you came into our lives four weeks ago, you have bought us nothing but joy.  Joy mixed with exhaustion, but ultimately the most indescribable joy.  You just fit.  I can't explain it, but it feels like there was an LL shaped hole that you have come along and filled.  You have made our family complete and made me the proudest Mummy alive.

I lay on the operating theatre table four weeks ago and prayed harder than I ever have before.  I prayed your journey into the world would be safe and I willed them to hurry up.  When I heard you cry, I just cannot explain that feeling to anyone.  I just felt so much relief.  There was a part of me, I must admit, that worried I wouldn't be able to love anyone as much as your sister, but as soon as I saw you I fell head over heels in love with you.  Your are my baby, my little one, my youngest girl, and I could not love you any more.  Like I said, you have completed our family.

Already you are so different to your big sister.  The main one is you are a lot more cuddly.  You like to be near me, and you like to be close.  Whereas Mads was always happy in her moses basket or in her chair, you like to be cuddled and you are happiest when you are in my arms.  And I don't mind that one bit.  I am relishing every single cuddle with you- stroking your incredibly soft head, smelling your milky breath and feeling the warmth radiating from you.  In the early mornings, around five am, you have been finding it quite hard to settle so you come in our bed- I never did that with Mads but I absolutely love snuggling you tight.  I know there will come a day when your older when I wish I could do that with you, so I am enjoying every single minute of it.

You have been quite unsettled on and off with trapped wind and I hate to hear you cry out in pain.  However in the grand scheme of things you are a happy baby and you are still in the stage where you sleep most of the day.  I can't wait till you start smiling and being a bit more awake, I am sure it won't be long now.  But for now I am relishing your sleepy cuddles.  I am well aware the time is already going so quickly, I don't want to wish it away.  

You are so beautiful LL, and you are my baby.

Mummy couldn't love you any more if I tried.  Thank you for being mine.

Love Mummy

xx