The innermost thoughts of my 16 year old self.
When I say that I have been blogging less than a year that is not strictly true. In actual fact I am an 'experienced' blogger! Yes thats right, I actually had my own little part of cyberspace all the way back in 2001- how forward thinking am I? I remembered the other night that I used to write on Live Journal all those years ago- at the time if the word blog existed which I am sure it did, I didn't use it but I guess that was exactly what it was.
The other day I was bored and decided to see if I could find my old 'blog,' it took me a while to remember the name but eventually I found it and low and behold it was still up there online for all to see the innermost thoughts and feelings of my sixteen year old self. I sat there for hours reading it and was immediately transferred back to being a teenager again- all the emotions and amusement of my younger years were immortalised in front of me on the world wide web.
I thought I would share a few little snippets with you-
April 8th- 'Today i have still felt slightly numb but i haven't cried. I spoke to L for ages about it on the phone and she just kept telling me the stuff i need to hear bless her. And although my eyes have welled up with tears a few times I haven't cried. I thought about it a lot but I tried to stop. And I don't want to write about it now because it is just torturing myself. I love him and I won't ever stop, he is my everything.' This little nugget of pure teenage sorrow was about my then boyfriend- my first love. He had a nose the size of a runway at Heathrow and had brown teeth because he used to eat toothpaste as a child. Who knew too much toothpaste could make your teeth brown? A word of warning to you there.
April 4th- 'F*ck today was.....well interesting. I got up super early for me and I went and had my nails done. They look way better than before. Then i drove home and made myself some noodles which tasted like scank, coz i did not cook them properly.' As you can see from this entry I have always been a literary genius and also knew exactly what to write about to draw in and engage my readers- because who doesn't want to read a post starting with a swear word and talking about noodles?
June 9th-' I am with S, he is cute because he bought me a cuddly pig but something is just not there for me- no one will ever match up to T. He was the one I was meant to marry.' Firstly I love the fact that I base my relationships with people on cuddly pigs- that must have meant he was a keeper. S was after the boyfriend with the brown teeth- S was much better, he had white teeth but probably only washed his hair about once every other week and listened to teenage heavy metal music, he also wore a long leather coat and you could never be quite sure if he was going to pull out a semi automatic weapon out from underneath. To think Mr E and I could never have ceased to exist as I thought I was destined to marry my first desirable boyfriend.
February 9th- 'T got his bits out over the webcam today- I think it was supposed to be a turn on but he got well into it and didn't realise that K was over, we were giggling so much I couldn't type properly.' Words ACTUALLY fail me. To think of Mads getting up to such antics makes me want to lock her in her room until she is twenty five. Very concerning indeed.
March 16th- 'B came over today and we rang up some of the boys in our year and pretended to sell them wood worm treatment and also speak to them about their test results that were available to pick up from the doctor.' Oh the fun I used to have- my teenage years were a laugh a minute let me tell you.
April 20th- 'The Americans went home today. On their last night here we all went to the pub and I drank so many shots that I ended up being sick in the back of Glen's car and then on my Mums antique living room rug. My Dad was so angry.' I did an American Exchange at school and I remember this evening well, it was my first time of being extremely drunk. My Mum had only recently started seeing Glenn, he didn't last long, probably me being sick in the back of the car put him off slightly.
There are some other classic snippets on there but they can be lost in the world of cyberspace, never to be seen again unless I somehow get famous and they then get leaked. What really scares me though is that in sixteen years time I am going to have a teenage girl. That thought actually terrifies me. That and the word hormones. *Shudders*