The Night Before Bug...

on Tuesday, 12 February 2013.

Dearest Bug,

This is the first letter your Mummy will write to you, just like I did with your big sister.  Two years ago on the 23rd December 2010 I wrote my first letter to Mads, in a little card- I told her how much I loved her and that I hope she would arrive safe, and how I hoped that I would be the best Mummy I could be for her.  The next day she arrived into the world.

And now it is your turn.  Knowing the day you are arriving is a funny old thing, but it means I can be prepared.  As I sit here, I know that tomorrow myself and Daddy will be making the short journey to our hospital, and while we are there you will be born.

I pray that you will arrive safely, thats all that matters to me.  I will lie on the table in the operating theatre, and the situation will be totally out of my control- I will be putting all my trust and faith into the amazing doctors and nurses who will deliver you to us- out of that little place you have been calling home for the last nine months, and into my arms.  I will wait, my heart pounding and without taking a breath, until I hear you take your first cry.  There is no sweeter sound in the world than that.

We have had a lovely nine months me and you.  We had a bit of drama at the start when the doctor told me I wasn't pregnant when I was, but deep down I knew.  I knew you were in there, even if you were the size of a poppy seed.  Call it a Mummy's instinct.  And when a blood test confirmed it, I just willed you to grow big and strong.  

It's different being pregnant the second time.  I still worry about you, of course I do, as I don't think I am a particularly sane pregnant person.  But whereas with your big sister I had oodles of time to just sit and think, with you I haven't had that luxury as I have had a toddler to look after.  But that doesn't mean we haven't bonded, you kick and move non stop and I have relished every single movement that you do.  Mads didn't move much at all and I was on weekly monitoring with her, but to have you kick, punch, swirl and wiggle is the most incredible feeling- I often lie there and just take every single moment of it in- it is the most amazing miracle and one that I will remember as the best thing about being pregnant.

You haven't caused Mummy much trouble at all, unlike your big sister!  We have only had to go to the hospital once for monitoring, you didn't make Mummy sick apart from the odd bit of nausea at the start, and apart from a very achy back, you and I have been getting on just fine.  I will miss being pregnant, especially as it is very unlikely we will have any more babies, so I want you to know that you have been an absolute pleasure to grow the last nine months and I will miss having you in my tummy all cosy and tight.  

When we found out you were a girl, I cried tears of happiness.  I always imagined having little ladies, and to have two of them, well what a complete honour.  I hope that the three of us grow up the best of friends, poor Daddy will have to get a hobby or spend some nights down the pub with all these ladies in the house!

I cannot wait to meet you now.  I have wondered so much about you, will you be like your sister and come out with loads of dark hair?  Will you have blue eyes and curly hair like her?  Or will you look completely different?  Will you be as big as Mads?  Or smaller?  All of these things I am so excited to find out, but rest assured I know that we will love you to pieces.  In fact we love you already.

As I go up to bed for what I can imagine will be a very restless nights sleep, I will try and close my eyes and try and make the time go quick, so it can be the morning of the day I get to meet my little girl.  

And that little girl is you- my darling Bug.  Whose name we have known since the start but haven't wanted to call you until you were officially here and in our arms.  Where you belong.

Can't wait to meet you tomorrow, have a safe journey baby girl.

I love you already,

Mummy. x


When we first announced you to the world- we have lots of memories already!




Comments (14)

  • Charlotte - Write Like No One's Watching

    Charlotte - Write Like No One's Watching

    12 February 2013 at 15:30 |
    This is beautiful. I can't wait to read all about her. And the video - gorgeous! xx
  • Momma L

    Momma L

    12 February 2013 at 15:39 |
    This has got me bawling! :) I'm expecting my second little lady too in 7 weeks so really got to me. Congrats ont he safe arrival of your little girl - I can't wait to meet mine now but will cherish the last few weeks of having her all to myself and feeling those kicks. L x
  • Kara


    12 February 2013 at 15:57 |
    Beautiful post, I love reading your letters to Mad's and am so excited to be doing so with Bug, welcome to the world beautiful girl, you have an amazing mama x
  • Capture by Lucy

    Capture by Lucy

    12 February 2013 at 15:59 |
    Thrilled for you all she is here safe and well, looking forward to reading all your adventures as a little family of 4! xxxx
  • Charlotte


    12 February 2013 at 16:10 |
    Beautiful letter Katie! Happy Birthday Eve Bug! I didn't think anything could make me want to be pregnant after last time but reading this did. Only for a short time mind! :0) Good luck with everything tomorrow! Will be thinking of you! x x x
  • Jo of Jo's Nursery

    Jo of Jo's Nursery

    12 February 2013 at 16:12 |
    Lovely post. Good luck for tomorrow. Can't wait to see her :-)
  • lucy at dear beautiful boy

    lucy at dear beautiful boy

    12 February 2013 at 16:32 |
    Ahhh, that made me a bit teary Katie. So beautiful. That little lady is so very lucky to be getting to join your family. She has a mummy with a big heart and a sensitive soul, a daddy who will dote on her and treat her like a princess, and a big sister who will love her and be her best friend through life. What an exciting new adventure. X
  • Stephanie


    12 February 2013 at 18:55 |
    This is such a sweet letter! That's so great that you are writing these for both of your daughters. I know they will cherish them on day. Good luck with the birth of baby #2! I know she'll bring even more beauty into your already beautiful family.
  • Bex @ The Mummy Adventure

    Bex @ The Mummy Adventure

    12 February 2013 at 21:44 |
    Looking forward to more stories and pictures of Bug. comgratulations on a second beautiful little girl x
  • CherryBlossomRain


    13 February 2013 at 09:47 |
    Beautiful! Cant wait to read more lovely stories. (I shed a little tear reading that!) I love the video too!

  • Mum2BabyInsomniac


    13 February 2013 at 10:15 |
    Ahhh that's so lovely! And massive congratulations, I can't wait til hear more about your second gorgeous little girlie! xx
  • Susan Mann

    Susan Mann

    13 February 2013 at 17:20 |
    Beautiful x
  • caroline


    13 February 2013 at 20:10 |
    Aw, brought a tear to my eye.. More so as I can relate a little. :)
    I wish you all the very best with Bug. :)
  • melissa


    14 February 2013 at 03:01 |
    so excited for your little family of FOUR :) Yay!

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