Worrying...

on Monday, 20 February 2012.

worrying
Is it just me or does anyone else worry more now they are a parent?

Sometimes I just lie there snuggling my gorgeous daughter and the love I have for her takes my breath away.

Sometimes I just lie there cuddling her and the love I have for her is so strong it is almost painful. Does that make sense?

I am a natural born worrier, I have an extremely over active imagination but sometimes I make myself worry too much.

What if something happens to me? Will someone else love my girl as much as I do?

Would they love her with their whole heart?

Would they know?

Know how she likes to be cuddled? Know that she has to snuggle 'Friend' the seahorse in order to go to sleep? Know that she likes to dance to 'Moves like Jagger.'

Know what makes her laugh. Know what makes her eyes sparkle.

Would they do anything they could to make her happy?

I hate worrying but I do so much more now I have her. I am so happy, we are so happy, our little family means more to me than anything in the world. The love I have for them is so intense.

The worrying I have certainly doesn't stop me doing things, or enjoying our lives together but there is always a little part of me that thinks 'What if?'

Is it just me that has these thoughts?

Tags: All about Me, Family, Life, Love

Comments (15)

Mummy and the Beastie

20 February 2012 at 21:26 | #

I think about it all the time and my biggest fear is me not being around for my boys. The thought of someone else raising them (besides my husband and I) makes me feel full of dread and the thought of how it would affect them. Worrying is all part of being a parent though isn't it, it's natural instinct and when we are growing up we don't appreciate what fears our parents have! It just makes you realise you have to live your lives to the full as you never know what tomorrow may bring :-) xx

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Tea&Biscotti

20 February 2012 at 21:44 | #

LOVE LOVE LOVE this post as its me right now! Im about to leave my 8month old with a childminder as I have to return to work. Worry topics: food, illness, will the childminder "lose" her? (I mean really really lose her, indefinitely!), what if she misses me? (I hope she misses me!).. the list is endless. You're not on your own, I think it takes a certain kind of mother not to worry and I think we're happy that we're not that kind... worrying means you care :-))
KellyAnn

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Notmyyearoff

20 February 2012 at 21:45 | #

I worry so much more now that I'm a mum. I keep thinking about who would look after z and whether he would still be the happy little baby that he is. He does have two sides of the family that pamper him to bits but there are things only I know about what he likes or dislikes etc. I do wonder about making a will but I haven't done it yet.

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Mum2BabyInsomniac

20 February 2012 at 21:53 | #

I worry about that so much, it's amazing to feel so much love but scary at the same time. I worry about something happening to me, worry about something happening to Iyla and worry about something happening to Dad2BabyInsomniac. It's horrible :( but I guess there isn't much point in worrying until something happens, I sill do though! Xx

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Bec (@bublet2011)

21 February 2012 at 00:33 | #

"Sometimes I just lie there cuddling her and the love I have for her is so strong it is almost painful."

This absolutely makes sense, I get this every single day!

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Bryony @ lovebryony.co.uk

21 February 2012 at 08:42 | #

This makes total sense to me, on bad days I lay awake at night worrying about all the things that could happen to hurt my family. Dean always tells me off for freaking myself out but it's impossible not to worry about the thing that means the most to you in the world! x

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Rachey320

21 February 2012 at 09:00 | #

So true, I think pregnancy tests should just come with a warning! I worried so much during pregnancy and it just seems to get worse! It's just love that makes us worry x

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TheBoyandMe

21 February 2012 at 10:03 | #

Chick, I worry constantly. No-one else knows The Boy like me, no-one knows his cries like me, his expressions, his needs. I carried him, I bore him and I know him better than anyone. I worry that he's eating enough, he hasn't wee-d in a few hours, why isn't he sleeping? Am I doing enough to stimulate him? You name it, I worry! I think it's called being a mother :-)

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HELEN

21 February 2012 at 10:07 | #

I'm a terrible 'what if' person.....my biggest fear is me not being around & the kids left to go days without showering.....wearing socks with sandals....and being given junk food in their lunchboxes every day.....
you can leave Mads with me cos I like dancing to 'Moves like Jagger' too
xx

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MaidInYorkshire

21 February 2012 at 14:39 | #

Wow - you have written it for me. Mine are nearly 10 and nearly 8, and my worry levels have remained horrendous since the day they were born. I am a natural worrier, but it has been so much worse since having children...

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melissa

22 February 2012 at 02:55 | #

i worry about the same thing for my baby boy, almost 10 months
love him more than anything in this world
never knew i could love quite like this...

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Kate

22 February 2012 at 12:22 | #

You know it is such a hard thing to do - parenting. Youngling is almost 3 (in March) and I am sure I am worrying more now that he is getting older than when I was pregnant or he was a new born. I don't think it will ever go away but as parents we need to learn how to cope with our own worries and not pass them onto our Younglings so that they can grow and develop without stresses and strains. I am not succeeding in this so if anyone has the answers let me know ;-) xx

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Emma @mummymummymum

22 February 2012 at 21:15 | #

I worry about everything all day long, sometimes I think i'm going mad. I guess it just comes with motherhood. I'm hoping that when they are older I will worry less, but something tells me thats not going to be the case. x

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Richmond Mummy

22 February 2012 at 22:57 | #

I'm totally with you - I worry about everything and I freak myself out worrying about the what ifs, because it takes my breath away how much I love Richmond Baby, it's overwhelming. I wrote a post quite soon after she was born called A Lifetime of Worry and it's basically more or less the same as yours! xx

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SAHMlovingit

23 February 2012 at 15:55 | #

It's perfectly natural (you saw my post on Monday) - it's inbuilt into us as soon as we become a mother I think. Alongside my fears of losing my baby I'm also so fearful of something happening to me or Matt and leaving MC (and her future sibling) without a Mummy and Daddy. The thought terrifies me. The thought of not being around to see them grow up. The things we go through eh! xx

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