I am behind in my bump diary posts yet again, I am now 36 and a bit weeks. I can't believe that the next entry I write will mean that I am full term- the 30's have definitely gone so much quicker than the 20's have.
I am feeling pretty good overall, but am just constantly tired, I think I could fall asleep anywhere. I don't know if this is down to the anaemia, or just to the fact that I am heavily pregnant and looking after a highly energetic toddler, but I literally constantly feel tired.
I am starting to ache if I walk too far or over do it, and I am still pretty uncomfortable with my ribs and back, Mr E has been so fabulous, perhaps even more so than normal, and has been getting in from work and letting me have hour long baths to relax and soak my tired muscles. Still in terms of pregnancy it is just the general late on aches, I feel really lucky to generally quite suit pregnancy. I am still loving my bump, but have started looking at clothes I can buy once it has disappeared!
I am also very pale with dark circles under my eyes, again I don't know whether this is the anaemia, but I look at myself in the mirror and get a shock every time about how pale I am. I look like a ghost!
Last week I had my very important meeting that I have been nervous about since the beginning of my pregnancy- the VBAC v C-Section choice. I was terrified going in there as I didn't want to have my decision analysed- but in actual fact the consultant was fine, and I am scheduled to have an elective c-section at some point between 40-41 weeks. I don't know what will happen if I go into natural labour before hand, but I am happy with the decision of the c-section- it feels like a massive weight off my mind.
I will admit that I went into the appointment and started to cry because I was nervous of the reaction, it is funny that all went according to plan.
I have my serious nerves about having a c-section, not less the recovery with a toddler but ultimately I know what to expect with one, my c-section last time was a really lovely experience, I just hope this one will be the same. I don't feel like one of these women who needs to have a natural birth or I will feel like I have missed out or been cheated.
I am starting to wonder what on earth my body will be like after this baby. I 'bounced' back quite well after Mads birth and while my tummy will never quite be the same again, I managed to get back into my jeans within a few weeks. This time because my tummy is so much bigger and the skin is so much more stretched, I do wonder what it will be. Last time I didn't exercise at all, whereas this time myself and a pregnant friend have already said we will try and do buggy bootcamp or go running. Obviously not for the first couple of months but that is our long term plan!
I have a routine midwife appointment this week but other than that, all is pretty quiet. We are trying to enjoy our time together as a three before our lives get turned upside down with our new arrival. While I cannot wait to have our new addition here now, I am relishing every hug, every bedtime ritual and every play date just the three of us before we become a four.