To my beautiful Mads,
I should start this by saying that I have been naughty and not keeping up to date with your monthly letters. Life is whizzing by so fast and I am now a couple of months behind, with you turning 40 months yesterday on April 24th. Therefore I thought I would join the last two months together, and hopefully now I will be back on track. Oops! I want to make sure I keep writing these as I know they will be such a wonderful memento of your childhood when you are big enough to read them. I have visions of us sat together at a kitchen table somewhere laughing and giggling over what you used to get up to.
The last couple of months have been so busy and you have literally grown up before my eyes. All of a sudden your clothes no longer fit, and you have got really tall. We had to go out and buy lots of new clothes the other day, and as usual you were spoiled by Grandma and Auntie Emma. The toddler days are far behind you now and in it's place there is a little girl who is growing up very quickly.
The last few weeks you have gone through another funny developmental patch. On the whole you are a really good girl but at times you struggle to convey your emotions. Rather than just say you don't want to do something, you get upset or angry when there isn't really any need to get worked up. You can get quite worked up by things, but we are just putting it down to you learning to communicate with us properly.
Some days you are as good as gold and the most helpful, kind, lovely little girl and then some days you are harder work. We never know what kind of day we are going to have, but for the most part you are a delight to be around. There are days when you completely push my buttons and test my patience, which I guess is just what it is going to be like having such a feisty and opinonated little girl in my life. Apparently at nursery they have never so much even had to have a cross word with you, and that makes me so proud. I just wish that was the case at home too! You love going to nursery now and always get really excited when it is your two nursery mornings. I am so pleased you have finally settled in so well and I love to hear about your antics when you get home. You tell me all about what you have done and you love 'Dancing Emma' the dance instructor who comes in on a Tuesday.
We started swimming lessons a couple of months ago and when we first went you screamed the place down the entire half an hour. But within two weeks you were fine and now you make us so proud with how you are in the water. You go off into the pool no trouble and wave to us from behind the glass- you go under the water through hoops, jump in and love to splash about. We are so pleased you are going to be water confident for our holiday this year.
You have been loving films this month, and at the moment the current favourites are Toy Story 2, Frozen and all of the Shrek's. You snuggle with us really nicely and watch them and we all enjoy having a Sunday afternoon film on the sofa, although LL hasn't got the same level of concentration just yet! When we ask you what film would you like to watch you always say 'Well that's up to you' and when we say our choice you always say no and ask for a different one!
Grandma found you some old Trolls and you love to play with those too, which takes me back to my childhood. You love to be outside and one of your favourite things to do is go to the park on your scooter. You also have an obsession with play dough and constantly ask to play with yours, the other day you played quietly for almost two hours and it was lovely to see you enjoying it so much. Mummy does have to hold her breath when tiny little bits get squashed into my cream carpet though.
Speaking of our house, the other night you did something which made me the most cross I have been with you so far. We have recently got our living room redecorated and silly Mummy left a biro on the table from when she was working. We were eating our dinner a while later when we noticed that you had drawn all over our lovely new wallpaper. I was so incredibly angry with you, I shouted really loudly and made you go straight upstairs to your room. You were so upset but I just couldn't even bear to see you so Daddy kept going up to check on you every five minutes or so. Eventually we cuddled and made up and you kept saying sorry. I felt a little guilty for getting so angry but it was a very naughty thing to do. Luckily our decorator has managed to peel the sheet off so it is back looking all shiny new again but it really taught me about how to control my emotions around you. I am still learning at this parenting business too.
Your eating is getting better slowly, after months of being a complete fusspot. You eat most things at nursery except you have a real thing against jacket potato's- apparently you get really upset when they bring them out! You will try more things at home, but still have set things that you eat and enjoy. Lunch is still by far your favourite meal of the day, you love what we call 'picky picky' meals- little bits of everything and will often ask if it is lunchtime about an hour after breakfast!
You are still such an incredibly kind big sister and love to take LL into nursery first and pick her up from her room because then you get the best cuddles. You chat to her constantly and cuddle her and play with her non stop. You will always share your food with her even when it is your last bit and it makes me so proud to see you being so sweet towards her. As you both get older we are really seeing the interaction between you coming alive, it is just amazing to see. Whenever we are in the car I am treated to constant giggling as you try and make LL smile by dancing or being silly- it is so cute to hear you laughing together.
We have a busy few months ahead of us, with weekends being taken up seeing friends or family occasions, as well as a couple of weekends where you are with Daddy as Mummy is away. Plus we have our holiday to Rhodes coming up in June, something which we can't wait for. In fact you already have your sunglasses ready!
I love you, always and forever.
But as always, you already knew that.