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You are 38 Months...

on Wednesday, 19 March 2014.

To my big girl,

First things first, check out the photo below.  It's of you, and wow you are looking at the camera and smiling.  Mummy nearly jumped for joy when she took this photo of you.  You tolerate the camera most of the time, but ask you to look at it and smile and you plaster on the biggest, fakest grin imaginable.  I can rarely get a photo of you looking at the camera and smiling your beautiful natural smile, so to say I love this photo is an understatement.  

When I look at it, two things strike me the most.  Firstly your wonderful hair- your wild unruly curls.  I couldn't love them anymore.  They drive me mad on a daily basis and every morning we have a fight about brushing them, you say 'please can I have it scruffy today Mummy?' meaning that we don't put it up.  You hate having it brushed, put in a top knot or having it washed.  The problem is it gets so tangly that it hurts you and we end up having to have a mammoth brushing session that results in tears.  Still I adore it and I won't cut even if it goes all straggly at the ends.  Mummy had hair like you until Grandma got it cut when I was ten into a bob (although the boys at school liked to call me helmet head!) and the curls never grew back.  I love my curly haired girl.

The second thing that strikes me is how grown up you are.  You officially are a little girl.  You have been for some time, but there is no ounce of toddler left in you now.  You are growing up so quickly and looking at this photo makes me feel a little sentimental.  Where did my baby go?  You are the funniest little person nowadays, making us laugh constantly.  You have the cheekiest, most bizarre little personality, and you come up with the most crazy songs and sayings.  We will laugh and then you will laugh your big belly laugh, and make us laugh even more.  

You talk ten to the dozen and sometimes I wish you had an off switch so we could have a moments peace.  You chatter chatter chatter all day long and come out with the funniest things.  The other day when LL had a nice outfit on you said 'Wow doesn't LL look snazzy.'  And then another day you said 'Let me see your teeth,'  to which I showed you and you replied 'You have pink teeth'  (meaning my gums) and then you said ' I really think you need to give them a brush.'  You pretty much pronounce all your words properly now except in the evenings when we sit down to read you say 'Are you sitting comferly?' instead of comfortably.  You also pronounce cuddlle as 'cuggle'- I never want you to stop saying it like that.

This month your favourite toys to pay with are your Toy Story characters, you love Toy Story and so we got you a little Woody, Buzz, Rex and Bullseye.  You also love to cut things with your scissors and will sit for ages and just chop up different bits of paper.  You love to play with play dough, and constantly ask us to get it out even though you make a complete mess each time and trample it into our cream carpet!  

You still love to watch You Tube and will watch some bizarre things on there, a favourite still being watching chocolate eggs being unwrapped.  Completely strange but you love it and so we let you watch it for a little while each day.  Mummy sits with you and watches what you watch but the other day you said the strangest thing.  I was getting you out of the car seat, and you shouted 'You will never take me alive!' at the top of your voice before dissolving into giggles.  I have no idea where it came from, unless it was from someone at nursery with an older brother or sister, so the only thing I can think is that you must have watched it somewhere.  It made me laugh at the time because it was so out of the blue, but I would rather you didn't say it again!

You adore your little sister so much and it is so lovely to see.  LL is going through a funny phase where she will only tolerate you in small doses and sometimes I feel a bit sad because you want to cuddle her but all she wants is Mummy.  You don't understand and just want to cuddle her non stop, and I feel sorry for you when she cries and pushes you away.  You are so cuddly and affectionate, and I hope that you will never lose that trait.  You still love playing with ears and will now ask me 'Mummy can I play with your ear?' and will snuggle on my knee and cuddle and stroke. 

You have your moments, where you drive me crazy and can be naughty or push the boundaries but for the most part you are actually a really good little girl.  You are at an age now where you listen to me (sometimes) if I tell you off and generally I can stop you from doing something, although every now and again we have days where you just whine and test my patience a lot.  Mostly though, we just have lots of fun together, and you make me laugh non stop.  

You are a silly, feisty, funny, strange little person.  But you are my little person and I love you for that. 

I love you, always and forever.

But as always, you already knew that.




37 months.

on Friday, 21 February 2014.

To my beautiful big girl,

Mummy is late in writing your letter this month, in fact you are very nearly 38 months but shhhhh, we all know how unorganised I am.  I had to think about how many months you were this time, it's getting a very big number and I am starting to lose count.  I did wonder whether to stop writing your letters now you are three, but then I decided that was a silly idea.  I would have loved a monthly letter from my own Mummy detailing what I got up too, so I shall carry on. One day we will read them together. This whole blog is for you, for us, to have a record of our lives together as a family. 

This past month you have been such a good girl.  Towards the end of last year, you were testing my patience quite a lot and pushing boundaries whereever you could.  Funnily enough a few of my friends have said the same thing when their children turned three, I wonder if is a developmental milestone or something similar?  However that testing phase seems to have calmed down for the moment and you are back to your lovely self.  Of course you still can have tantrums, or be whiny, especially when you are tired, but for the most part we seem to be 'getting' each other this month.  We really do have such fun together and we giggle all day long- you always tell me I am your best friend, and I think I have to agree that you are mine too.

You have settled in to nursery well and although you sometimes still cling to my leg when I leave you, when I pick you up you are full of stories of the fun you have had and the things you have got up to.  You always eat all your dinner at nursery, things that I have made you at home that you won't even touch, and I have no idea why but I am just pleased you are trying new things.  If you eat all your lunch at nursery, you get to have a 'treat' dinner in the evening- usually Nutella sandwiches, fruit, crisps and something naughty like a chocolate or a biscuit.  You get so incredibly excited about this and chatter all the way home about 'chocolate sandwiches'.  

You are still napping in the afternoons, it is completely crazy that you still do at three, as most of my friends children stopped a long time ago.  But you are quite happy going up to bed at around half one (or half two on nursery days) and snoozing until at least half three or four.  Because LL sleeps at the same time, I get quite a nice break to do work or housework, and as such I am pretty strict about them.  It's only because firstly I know you still need them and secondly because the more times in a row we don't have them, the more likely they are to stop.  You still go to bed absolutely fine at 7pm and sleep until 7am the next day.  You have always been our amazing sleeper, but I do keep wondering when it is going to go wrong.  

Every night you and Daddy pretend to be something when you walk from our room to your own bedroom after your bedtime story.  It can literally be anything, one night you were Ken and Daddy was Barbie, you have been dinosaurs, silly talking cupcakes, Toy Story characters, whatever takes your fancy that day.  You make me laugh watching you and it has become part of our little bedtime routine.  It's a small part of the day but one I always look forward too.  You are so silly and put on funny voices.  You love to make us laugh. 

You are so loving and kind to your little sister and I think you are excited that she is starting to be able to play with you more now.  You crawl around the room and chase her and you both laugh hysterically, and every afternoon after your nap you bring down Pongo for her to cuddle.  You always share your food with her, even if Mummy doesn't want her to have it!  You constantly want to cuddle her and hold her hand, and it makes my heart swell on a regular basis that you are so good with her.  

I probably ought to draw this to a close, as I could ramble on about you all day.  Thank you for being such a feisty, wild spirited, kind and loving daughter.  Our days so much brighter because you are in them.  


I love you, always and forever.

But as always, you already knew that.

xxx Mummy



Happy Birthday, You Are Three!

on Tuesday, 24 December 2013.

To my beautiful Mads,

Wow you are three today. Three years ago we made the short drive to the hospital to have the best Christmas present I had ever, and will ever receive.  Time does fly and I can't help but feel bittersweet about it, but there is no time to think about that when there is celebrating to do, cakes to eat and pressies to open.

I am sure that Mummy has told you, and will tell you, the story of your birth a million times.  But I don't know if I have ever told you the story of your song so I thought I would tell you it in your third birthday letter.  

I was so nervous to have you here with us safe and well and for the last ten or so weeks of my pregnancy I had to have weekly, then twice weekly monitoring at the hospital day assessment unit.  I had my iPod connected in the car and it was on shuffle so any random song could come on.  One day, a couple of weeks before you were due to arrive, a song came on the iPod.  It was 'When you Believe' by Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey.  I was in the car with your Auntie Anna when I first played it and I said to her that the lyrics to this song were quite apt for the time.

 'There can be miracles, when you believe.'  

After all you were a little miracle to us.  Because of that I played the song almost every time I went in the car.  I have a tendency to do that!

On Christmas Eve we headed to the hospital to meet you.  As Mummy was having a caesarian, it meant she knew you were arriving that day and I was so incredibly nervous.  I lay in the operating theatre with lots of people buzzing around me and I felt sick.  My heart was pounding so fast even though Daddy and the theatre staff were trying to calm me down.

The radio was on in the background and we kept joking that you may be born to a Christmas tune.  First up an Oasis song played, which pleased Daddy no end and then all of a sudden 'When you Believe' came on, although the version playing was by Leon Jackson.  I couldn't quite believe it, it's not exactly a hugely popular song and was a few years old, so I couldn't believe that it was playing at the moment our little miracle arrived into the world.

It will always always be your song and whenever I hear it I can't help but be transported back to that moment.  All those emotions- fear, excitement, nerves, and eventually happiness.  The little person who arrived screaming into the world and made me a Mummy.  Who turned our worlds completely upside down, and who taught me how to be a better person.

Our little Christmas Cracker is three.

We are so thankful for you.  Happy 3rd Birthday my darling.


Mummy loves you more than anything in the world.

But as always you already knew that.

Mummy. xx

35 Months- One Month Off Three.

on Monday, 09 December 2013.

Dear Mads,

This is the last letter I will write to you as a two year old.  Next month, you will be three.  Three.  When did that happen?  How has that tiny little scrunched up newborn become a fully fledged little girl?  I am in a little bit of denial about three, three is no longer a toddler, three is nearer school age than being a baby.  Three is a big deal.

But for now you are still two.  And don't we know it.  Two is wonderful- so full of adventure, innocence and fun.  But two also can be hard work.  You, my little girl, knows her own mind 100%.  In some ways Mummy admires you for being so strong willed, yet at the same time we can clash.  99% of the time it is over food.  Generally over your dinner.  This month has been really hard when it comes to dinner times.  For some reason you have started completely refusing your dinner.  Unless it is 'Daddy's Ghetti', Thomas the Tank Engine spaghetti hoops or stuffed pasta, you just aren't interested.  Your little sister will eat whatever we eat, wolfing down huge portions, but you just refuse to eat it.

We have tried everything.  The practically force feeding you approach.  The just ignore her and completely praise LL approach.  The 'just try one bite and you can have a treat' approach.  As yet nothing seems to be working so we are back to just trying to ignore you.  Let's hope it changes soon as it is hard work for us all, Mummy worries about you when you don't eat anything for your dinner.

You can test my patience at times.  Generally it is when you are over tired or under the weather.  You can be a bolshy little madam at times saying 'I want this' and 'I want that'.  But then at the same time you can also be exceptionally polite saying please and thank you for everything.  I guess it is just learning how to express your emotions and learning what boundaries you can cross.

That's the not so good stuff out the way.  But for all the times you drive us mad, there are a thousand more that make our hearts swell.  Most of the time you are the most delightful little girl and you make us proud every day.  You are still the world's best big sister, and words cannot express how I feel as I watch you and LL interact more and more.  You giggle together, cuddle constantly and play together- it is an amazing bond to watch.  You are just so caring towards her, and it really is remarkable.

You are incredibly affectionate, and are always wanting to sit on our laps, cuddle and kiss us.  You still play with ears and suck your fingers, it is the most adorable trait ever.  You are always telling us we are your best friend and that you love us.  We love you just as much.

You make us laugh every single day, you are such a funny little thing.  The other day we were stuck in traffic and I said to you 'We are in a traffic jam' to which you replied 'Oh Wooooooooow I love jam.'  Then we were in John Lewis cafe when we went out shopping with Grandma and she went to the toilet and you turned to me, put your hand on my leg, tilted your head, looked at me with such concern and said 'Mummy are you worried about Bum-ma?' (Grandma)  It was so funny to see you looking so concerned, and funny as to where you had picked that from.  

You call a radish, 'a radisha', and you call Flamingo's, 'Mingos'.  The other day you were 'reading' me a book and you asked me 'Are you sitting comferly?'    You come out with funny sayings every day and I wish I could write every single one down but I would need a very large notebook.

This month brings us Christmas, and of course your third birthday on Christmas Eve.  Let's make it a month to remember.

 I love you, always and forever.

But as always, you already knew that.

xxx Mummy


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