For My Girl's...
A couple of weekends ago I joined 100's of others of bloggers for the BritMums Live conference. I had a blast with old blogging friends, forged lasting friendships with new ones, cried a bit and laughed a lot.
On the Friday, I hadn't even been there more than ten minutes when I got talking to a lady from the blog A Mish Mash Life. We were having a nice chat, and as she left she placed her hand on my arm and said 'If I don't see you again, I just wanted to say that your blog is the most wonderful legacy for your girls.' It sounds so silly to say it but she made me get tears in my eyes, she was so sincere and kind.
Her words really made me think.
When I started this blog I had no idea if I would stick at it. If you look at my earliest posts, I tried almost to fit in with other blogs out there at that moment, I tried too hard to be funny or talk about current topics. But slowly I found my feet, my voice and a passion for taking photos of my little ladies.
My posts are occasionally soppy, there's no denying that. Our life might not be flash, or particularly exciting, but we are happy at the moment. I choose to write about those happy times, our 'beautiful ordinary' and our simple moments. I am aware my soppy posts might not be to everyone's tastes, but I want to document our lives together, and how thankful my children make me.
Of course I have boring days where I will bedtime to hurry up, or where they make me want to tear my hair out- we are all human and I don't know a parent out there who doesn't feel like that from time to time. But I don't feel the need to blog about those moments, as they are fleeting.
Just as fleeting, is time. Time is passing us by so quickly. Mads is now nearer to three than two, and I no longer have a newborn but a baby who is rolling and trying to get on the move. I started this blog when Mads was just four months old, the same age LL is now, and over the two years I have been blogging I have documented most of their lives on this blog. All my pregnancy with LL is preserved on here, as well as her magical newborn days, which are already a distant memory.
I have so many things to thank blogging for. I have met lifelong friends, been given amazing opportunities, got paid work, been shortlisted for awards and developed a passion for photography and writing. I am so thankful for everything that blogging has bought me. Really thankful.
But the main thing?
The main thing is that one day, a long way from now, when my girl's are grown up, I hope to be able to sit them down and give them the name of this website. I hope that I can sit and watch their faces as they flick through the pages and see their baby years documented.
I can imagine us sat with a bottle of wine, flicking through the pages and laughing at how Mads told her Daddy 'he has really nice bits' or that LL wiggles her bottom when she gets excited. A little bit like my Mum, sister and I sometimes do over old family photographs.
I hope they will be able to feel every emotion, smile at every photo, and read what fun we had during the years they won't remember.
I want them to relive their childhood memories through this blog, and I want them to realise just how loved and wanted they were. You don't know what life has in store, but I want to document every moment of our lives together until they tell me they no longer want me to.
It may be soppy, but it's how I feel. I am so incredibly thankful for these two little people who I am lucky enough to call my daughter's.
This is my blog. This is our simple life.
This is our story.
For my girls.