Half a Year Old!
My Dearest LL,
You turned six months old a week or so ago. A bittersweet milestone to me. A milestone I have been looking forward to in some ways yet dreading in others. Half a year. You have been with us for half a year. Each day that passes gets you nearer and nearer towards one.
I remember with your big sister thinking that six months seemed so grown up. It feels like you are on a fast track to toddlerhood, yet at the same time as you are my baby, compared to Mads you seem so little- I guess that is part and parcel of having a highly energetic toddler in the house.
With Mads we started weaning her at around five and a half months but I wasn't in any rush with you. You are thriving on Mummy's milk and I love the times we spend snuggling and feeding, although you don't feed for long anymore, in fact you never really did. On the day you turned six months we tried you on a tiny bit of porridge, and since then you have been having a meal a day at dinner time. So far you have tried carrot, pear and banana, and some days you wolf it down and some days you aren't so keen.
We were having a little bit of trouble with your sleep at nighttime, but the last week or so you seem to have turned a corner. Mummy made the decision not to feed you at night, mainly because I didn't think you were hungry and were just using me as a comfort to get back to sleep. The first few nights you really cried and I felt so incredibly guilty but as each night passed you seemed to settle that bit easier. Now we are at the stage where you occasionally wake up and have a little moan but you manage to settle yourself back to sleep now. You still wake up around 5am or 6am but you come in our bed, have a little feed and then snooze and cuddle Mummy till it's time to get up at half seven.
Your rolling now every minute you are on your back, but you only like to stay on your tummy for a little bit before getting cross and shouting to be put back on your back, only for you to roll straight back again! You aren't sitting up unaided yet, and you don't seem to be in any hurry to learn, but you are desperate to move and when you are on your tummy you manage to get over the other side of the room and I have no idea how you do it.
You are an incredibly smiley baby. You only even have to look in your direction for you to muster the biggest grins and you get so excited your little head bobs around. It makes me proud that you are so happy, and although you have your moments, you generally are really chilled out. I have to thank you for that. I was so worried about having two children, I just couldn't imagine the logistics but you have made being a Mummy to two so easy.
From the second you arrived in the world you just completed our family. All the worries I had- about having enough love to go round, about neglecting Mads, about neglecting you, about the general hardness of having two children- it just hasn't happened. You just fitted in straight away. Of course we have hard days, days where we are all a bit grumpy, but our little team just works. I relish the days I spent with you and your sister, and I feel priviliged being able to watch you grow and interact together.
You are a Mummy's girl and I adore you for that.
The next six months will bring such a lot of changes. Sitting up, crawling, maybe even walking. Babbling, those first sweet words, the first kisses and proper cuddles. I can't wait to experience them with you, yet at the same time I am relishing every single day of you being just the way you are.
I'm so so proud to be your Mama.
Mummy couldn't love you any more if I tried. Thank you for being mine.